Feelings of an Emotionless Man

Right now I cannot sleep and it is 1:35am. I have been struggling with states of depression I guess due to lack of success. Not to mention there are very few people I can trust in the world. It seems that almost everyone you encounter at some point or other wants to inflict harm on you. In order to achieve your goals you have to be able to overcome the obstacles. My life is a novel with countless twists and turns. I will not allow people to weigh me down thus hindering my success. I am about to say screw friendship because I do not believe that the actions of this word exist. People use the terms "true love" and "true friends" to show that without the "true" the words alone are "false". Do not get me wrong I do not believe I live in an ideal world, I just want to live the Golden Rule. Does anyone even live by this Rule anymore other than me? I seem to never have the respect that I give other people reciprocated. I know that I am not perfect in the least. I have said things that I am not proud about in reference to people I love. I have to learn tact and when to just shut up. However, I do not purposely try to hurt someones progress or their emotions. Honesty is what I give but I always end up associating with dishonest, disloyal, selfish, manipulative, conniving, spiteful, immature people. I have realized that I have no control over how other people act toward others - specifically myself. I am now aware of the persona's and demeanor's of these traits of people that do not compliment my personality. Therefore I decided to travel on the road less traveled alone.